Monday, December 17, 2007

My favourite work of art

By Beatrice Raushill SPS06

When I was thirteen years old I read two books which were the first books that I thought were good. The books are connected to eachother and together they made a big impact on me. The books are called Klassresan and Malin + Rasmus = Sant by Moni Brännström Nilsson. I think the names of the books are rather silly but the stories are very good and they probably affected me so much because I was so young and had not yet read so many serious books.


It is a story about love and problems as a teenager and it ends tragically, so the genre will probably be a tragedy. I have never read those books again so the only memories I have is from the first time. Anyway the first book Klassresan is about a class that soon will quit sixth class and get separated and start at a new school. That was exactly what I had just done and that was why I got interested in that book. The class is going on a last trip together and it is a girl in the class and her life that the book is partly about. The author writes partly from the girls perspective (from her diary) and partly from the classmates’ perspectives. This girl gets along with a boy that is new in the class. He is two years older and does not care about school so much. He is a real bad boy who smokes, drinks and even inhales drugs. Because of that he is a pupil who has not moved up and is now going in her class.


It was really easy to understand the book because the writer describes everything very well. She writes a lot about the characters’ lives in detail so you get to know everything about them. At the same time as I read the book I listened to the radio as I usually do when I read. There were particularly two songs that I remember well, so when I hear them today I think of the acting in the book. I had already experienced something like Klassresan myself and that made it more interesting to read the second book, Malin + Rasmus = Sant, which could be something I was going to experience. The people had changed and were still changing as they started a new school and got new friends. The girl and the boy (Malin and Rasmus) fall in love with each other of course, but they are very different, and some bad things happen in their relationship, such as Rasmus starts to inhale drugs again after a while even though he promised Malin to quit. It was interesting to read about how the classmates changed and I thought that is how real life is. That will happen to me and my friends and other classmates too. I understood how this girl felt in the different situations, all her insecurity and the problems you have as a teenager. It felt good to read about something that was a little like myself at that time.


I also liked the story because it was so cute with all the love, and the love was such a big difference to all other things Rasmus was doing. The love made him change and he stopped doing bad things and spent more time studying. It did not affect my values and tastes so much as I recall it, but just because I was quite young I thought “So this is what life is going to be like?” “Will something like this happen to me too?”. The book changed my idea of life a bit. It was such a great book and a very sad ending, which made the book even better, and it probably affected my heart a little too. I don’t feel like I am burned out on it because I have just read it once. The only thing would be that I think the titles of the books are a little bit childish. I do not feel like an artist, and even if I did, it would not be because of this book. It has not given me any inspiration to be any kind of artist, it was just enjoyable reading.

My favourite work of art

I would say it is probably one of the best bands I know. About four years ago one of my best friends introduced me to Coldplay. I remember that I was a little doubtful, I did not know if I enjoyed the music or not. Usually it is not that hard to decide, but this time it was, which on the other hand is a good sign that the music was special. I had heard their songs before, but I guess I did not make a mental note. Well, after listening to their songs over and over again, just like my friend told me, I began to love Coldplay, their music and their lyrics. Coldplay only consists of guys, but still it is not a typical boyband, like Westlife and Backstreet boys.

When I realized how good they were, and after falling in love with them, the only music I was listening to was Coldplay. I turned up the volume and then I just sat by the computer and enjoyed it. Of course I still do this sometimes, but now I have so much more great music to choose from, so it does not happen very often.

I think that Fix you was the first song I heard, and it is still one of my favourites. Sometimes when I listen to it, I get overwhelmed with joy, and it feels almost like I am walking on clouds. Also, when I am listening to it, I often sing along, and it makes me feel very good. Its great lyrics can make anyone feel good and happy. Your problems seems to be smaller, it feels like everything is going to be alright even though it did not feel that way before. However, I am not sure how long that feeling lasts, probably not very long. Here are a few lines from the lyrics:

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse


I am presumably not the only on to recognize myself in this text. It is a perfect description of a bad time in your life. The text is actually a little sad, but somehow it also gives hope. I think that is what I like about this song, there is hope. I think that hope is the most important thing to have. But, apart from this song, Coldplay has many other great songs. There is one for every mood, which is great. The only problem is that maybe I have been listening too much to some songs, so now I have to be in a special Coldplay-mood. But when I am in that special mood, Coldplay is the only band I can listen to. This is also when I get crazy and walk on clouds which I mentioned before. I do not think I can say "That is my absolute favourite song!" because there are so many great. And if I would try, it would be more than one in the first place. It is not only Coldplay's songs, it is also their singer. He has an excellent, lovely, very special voice and I just love it. In short, he is a great singer! He is also very good-looking.

I remember when we were on a trip with my class a couple of years ago. One of the guys turned on one of my favourite songs, and I went insane and shone like a sun. Of course I was not the only one to love them, so there were a few more who became happy, not only me! Unfortunately the sound was pretty bad. But we enjoyed it anyway, well, at least I did.

I think that I will always like Coldplay. Maybe not as much as I do right now, but I will probably allways like their music in some way. There are always moments in your life you need music like this, and I think Coldplay will be my first choice.

Lords of Dogtown

I have chosen to present a movie that really got my attention the first time I saw it. It is called Lords of Dogtown, and it is a mixture of drama, sport, action and biography. It reaches out to many people, considering it consist of so many different genres.
It is based on a true story about the Z-boys. And who were they then? They were three teenagers from Venice Beach, California during the 1970s, who loved to skateboard. Actually it’s these guys who took skateboarding to a whole new level. Their names are Tony Alva, Stacy Peralta and Jay Adams. You get to follow them from the beginning of their skateboarding and all the way towards their success.


They all grew up in messy families, their parents were either alcoholics, drug users or unemployed. None of them had a lot of money, but it really didn’t bother them because all they wanted to do was to skate. And they were able to do that with some help from a guy called Skip. He runs a surf shop but he is also very interested in skateboarding. He decides to help them to join competitions and other events, and he starts a skate team called the Zephyr team. He says “there are more concrete in the world than there are good waves”. Alva, Peralta and Adams outshine the others at the competitions and sponsorships are thrown at them. And before they know it they are world famous, and they all becomes rivals. But there is one of them who doesn’t let the success go to his head, Jay Adams. While the other two are travelling the globe to promote themselves, he still hang around in Dogtown. He doesn’t really bother because he sees what fame has done to his former best friends. He thinks that they have lost the meaning with skateboarding, and they just do it for the money. Jay refuses to give up the one thing he really loved for some papers with numbers on them!


The first time I saw it, I was hooked. I was sitting at home and had nothing to do so I rented this movie, mostly because I had heard that is was good. So I gave it a shot. Anyway I was completely amazed by it. I don’t know much about how to make a movie but even I can tell that the camera-work is awesome. They have really captured all the brilliant moments in it. I think that they have thought about everything to make it interesting for the watcher. Even the colours are changed to look like you are in the 1970s. And they have chosen the music that was popular back in those days and you recognize at least some of it. In one scene when Tony Alva is falling at a very high speed in a downhill you can really feel the pain.


It brings up what it is like to be a teenager in a world full of uncaring adults. I think everyone has felt left out sometimes in their lives. I know I have, more than once. You feel like you are misunderstood and just small. You will always be a child among older people. Everywhere around you there are people without caring parents with alcohol –or drug problems. You think that everything is good and great one moment and the next everything just falls to pieces. I think that it is really important that you have an interest so you don’t have to be in and around the problems all the time. That would just break you down even more.


I think that the skateboarding helped them to get through. They wanted to prove to their parents that they could manage to do it, and it is also a way to break free I guess. The true reason why they got as good as they got I think is because they were so determined to make it, to be able to show to their parents that they didn’t need them anymore.


This movie is also about relationships between brothers and sisters, children and parents. All of these three guys had either lost a mother or a father, none of them had both of their parents around. They counted on their siblings. If I can’t talk to one of my parents about something I always talk to my brother. Since there is only one year between us I feel that he can relate more to some things than my parents can.


Now I’ve seen the movie so many times that I can’t even remember how many, and I’m not burned out on it yet. Perhaps I will later but as it feels now I don’t think so, because every time I watch it I find something new that I hadn’t noticed before. And that’s how a real good movie should be like. No matter how many times you’ve seen it you will always find something new!


Cecilia Friis smsp06

Cold Mountain!

This is a romantic drama that is very sad, but at the same time a very beautiful story about love and how a man must fight for the woman he love. What does love at first sight mean? That is what this movie shows in a very special way and how much patience you must have if you really love somebody! The story takes place during the American civil war and is about a woman who meets a very special man and they fall in love when they just have exchanged some few words. But just when they get to know each other, he gets a calling and has to go to war, to fight for his country and they have to go different ways. But she expects to see him in just a few month and believes that he will come back for her. But after more than two years without any answer from her letters she loses faith in seeing him again. That’s what love at the first sight is all about. The first time I saw this movie was at the cinema. I had heard that it should be a great movie, so me and my friends went to the cinema. It is one of the best movies I have seen. It catches every viewer’s attention directly from the beginning until the ending. I do not think this movie has affected me in a very special way but in my mind I started to think and really understood that it must have been a very hard situation for the people during this time when it was war, to go different ways knowing that they might not see each other again. It is a very sad story and I felt as being in the movie and in that situation.... you know it is like...when they cry you cry, and when they are happy you’re happy. I do not believe that you become tired of this movie because it is not like other movies. It shows so many different feelings. And I just love the characters in the movie because they are very special and they are so important in the story. Well, I have not got tired of it yet and I have seen it many times I just know that I love to see this movie again.

Sushi for Beginners by Marian Keyes

All right! I guess my favourite novel is Sushi for Beginners. I like to read about women who are in their early thirties, their problems and their happiness. I do not know if it is because I will know what I am supposed to do and what I am not supposed to do when I am in my thirties. and I do not think I am the only one to recognize part of my life wiht theirs.It is a "girly" book so I do not think boys would like it.
I have lots of memories from it, I just read it. I can not point out just a few events in the book, the whole book is so great. But perhaps the strongest memory is when you realize that Clodagh (Ashling´s best friend)is having a secret relationship with Ashling´s boyfriend, and that is tearing their friendship apart. At first you just know that Clodagh is seeing someone and then you understand who he really is and you feel the pain that Ashling must have felt the moment when she sees them together.

I have just read the novel once, but I do not think I will be "burned out" on it for a long time. If you read some other books by Marian Keyes you will see that many of them are about women looking for happiness. All right I said, I like these kind of books but I sometimes I hesitate whethwe I like them or not.

Cold Mountain

Thursday, December 6, 2007

CAN’T STAND ME NOW

By LINNÉA ENGLANDER

Have we enough to keep it together?Or do we just keep on pretending (and hope our luck is never ending)...

These lines are from one of my favourite songs Can’t Stand Me Now which detailed the breakdown of the two chaotic front men in the Libertines. They describe the bad situation they were in at that time, which included drugs and the disturbance between the two of them. When you listen to this song and know a little bit about the history of the band you can really feel the hate but also the love that they had for each other.

Nowadays when you hear the name Pete Doherty, you often associate him with drugs and the supermodel Kate Moss. Okay, he has a really big drug problem and he is in an on and of relationship with Kate but the story does not end there.

He is, in my perspective, one of the best writers and musicians in our time. When I heard the song Music When the Light Go Out for the first time I thought that it sounded really weird. I had never heard anything like it. I did not think it sounded good, but in a strange way I liked it. The lyrics were a little bit hard to understand, and I did not really get the point of it. But after listening to it a few times I was in love with the song. I started listening more to the music and after one or two weeks, I was totally possessed of the mysterious lyrics and tunes, and I wanted to know everything about them.

After a long research on every odd and fake page on the internet I got a slight understanding of who they were. Nowadays, when I know almost everything about them, I can really say that the internet is sometimes full of rubbish. Anyway, the information about them made me feel even more interested and after reading through almost every song lyrics I really liked them. You can not write down their whole life story in one single page because it is just so much. But here is a shorter version: Pete and Carl Barat met through Pete’s sister when Carl was studying drama and Pete English literature. After a while they moved in together and then formed a band named The Libertines. Pete explains that a libertine like a person who is free and enjoying life in every sense (just compare to the movie The Libertine).They made a big success in the UK and even in the US. In 2004 the band split up. Pete was kicked out because of his drug abuse the tabloids told us, but I know that it was a little bit more complicated than that.

I can not say which album I prefer most, but the debut Up the Bracket with its wonderful song: The Good Old Days is one of my favourites. The lines:

It's not about, tenements and needlesand all the evils in their eyesand the backs of their mindsDaisy chains and school yard gamesAnd a list of things we said we'd do tomorrowA list of things we said we'd do tomorrow
just make me feel like screaming! I construe that the lyrics are about that you should not care what other people think and say about you because life is more than that.
I especially like the line: a list of things we said we’d do tomorrow because sometimes it really feels like you want to set about doing things, but you just sit and dream of it.

The second album, the self-titled the Libertines with it’s What Became Of the Likely Lads? and the lines What became of the dreams we had?, and What Became of Forever? which tells the story about the cruel breakdown of the deep and sensitive friendship between Pete and Carl and the following collapse of the band, it is really moving and sad.

After reading the book Pete Doherty talking, I must say that I like the first album most, because he tells about the hard times when they recorded the second album, and that they needed security just for being in the same room. So I think the first album, which certainly included some drugs and fights is still more real and sincere than the second, because the whole band was about to split up when they recorded it.

I can go on and on telling you about how great they were, but in some peoples’ eyes they were nothing more that a pair of naive teenagers who wanted a bit of fame and money. Yes, they were young and naive and they wanted money. But who is blaming them? They loved music and poetry and wanted people to hear their work. Which artists do not? And of course they needed money. And where the drugs came in, I do not know. But after reading a lot about them I can just say that it was not Pete who started doing drugs, it was Carl. Even if that is not important I just want to clear that out, since everybody blames Pete for the break-up.

I do not think I will ever feel burned out of them because they have meant so much to me. Even if I feel angrier reading the news everyday about Pete destroying his life with drugs, I know that he is a really kind person who does not want to hurt anybody. He is a poet and a great songwriter and sometimes it feels like that is the price you have to pay.

I will follow Pete through his bad and good times and I will never forget him. For me a Libertines reunion would be almost as good as a Beatles reunion. I think that Carl’s new band Dirty Pretty Things and Pete’s band Babyshambles are really good, but I rather see them together. It is just like splitting up Simon and Garfunkel; both individuals are great alone, for example Art Garfunkel doing Bright Eyes, but, I do not think it could compete with a Simon and Garfunkels song like Bridge over Trouble Water or Sounds Of Silence. Pete’s and Carl’s chemistry are just made to work, even if they have a hard time showing it. I think the drugs are an important player in the game.

In fact, Pete and Carl had a little reunion this year. Pete was playing with his band on a concert and in the middle of the libertine’s song What a Waster, Carl appeared on the stage and they played old Libertines songs, even Babyshambles songs. Pete’s line before Carl came in was: Ladies and gents w/out further ado, I've been waiting for this moment - Mr Carlos Barat! and then after a while he added: nah just kidding, what you expected for 25 quid? So the audience was really shocked when Carl appeared. But I do not know if this reunion is really going to last very long because Babyshambles has just released a new record. But I think there is still hope. In an interview Pete says: I am a libertine and I will always be a libertine, I have got it written on my arm.

P.S. if you want to se the fabulous reunion just enter http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=is58uFO-rGc , it gives me goose pimples every time! D.S.

Self-esteem

I have read a book "Självkänsla nu" written by Mia Törnblom. It's a book about how to get good self-esteem and how important it is have.

When Mia Törnblom was younger she had bad self-esteem. She looked down on and despised other people, due to the fact of the low self-esteem she had, and that is one of the reasons why she wrote this book. She wants to let other people know how things can change, like it did to herself. She also wants you to think: I'm fine! And that you always have to rely on yourself, not being afraid of failing.

One important thing thing Mia Törnblom writes is: To get to a deep feeling of gratitude of what we have don't get to emphasize the weight of. When I say this I don't mean that we have to stop struggle for more development, joy, love, and other thinghs. But if we don't appreciate and feel greatful of what we have, we don't even either are going to feel satisfied of what we get. This piece says a lot how as a matter of fact lives are.

I like "Självkänsla nu" very much. It was my mum who bought it to me and immediately when I got the book I took a liking of it. I began reading, reading and reading! When I had read the book, I felt some change in myself. Before I read the bookm I had a feeling of lacking self-esteem, I quite often thought about what other people thought and said, but when I was finished reading I felt better. Nown I also think more and more of the importance of having a self-esteem. You will not be able to reach ypur goal without it.

Even if you do not have Mia Törnblom beside you, it almost feels like that, because she writes in that good way and she helps you on the way too.

According to myself, everyone should read the book, even if you have excellent self-esteem. I imagine that everyone should read the book because what she writes will affect you a lot. You will always remember what she told you. "Självkänsla nu" is excellent reading for everybody!

Monday, December 3, 2007

My favourite movie

The Pirates of the Caribbean

My favourite work of art/entertainment is the movie The Pirates of the Caribbean. It is an action/comedy and there is a romance between Will Turner (Orlando Bloom) and Elizabeth Swann (Keira Knightley). Johnny Depp starrs captain Jack Sparrow. The movie is directed by Gore Verbinski and it is produced by Jerry Bruckheimer.

Will Turner is a blacksmith and he is in love with the governor’s daughter Elizabeth Swann. One night The Black Pearl (a big pirate ship) attacks Port Royal and the pirates kidnap Elizabeth. Earlier that day Will had confronted Captain Jack Sparrow and he put Jack into prison. After the attack Jack tells Will that he was the captain of The Black Pearl before Barbossa (a pirate) took over and he knows where they are taking Elizabeth. They follow The Black Pearl to the treasure island “Isla de Muerta”, but Jack is not interested in saving Elizabeth. He is only interested in the medallion, which Elizabeth took from Will when she found him on a shipwreck several years ago.

The first time I saw the movie was at the cinema with a couple of friends. It was fun. There is a lot of humour in the movie, the character Jack Sparrow is very funny and special. After I had seen this movie I started to like comedy/action movies. There is also humour in the parts which are scary and that is why I like it so much. I remember that I was smiling when we left the cinema and we talked about the movie all the way home.

I also think it is a really good movie because it makes you imagine what it was like to live in the 16th century.

I have seen it a dozen of times and I still like it after all these years, but maybe it is the fun parts in the movie, which are so special that you do not get tired of it.










Written by: Henric Malmros SMSP 06

Saving Private Ryan

My favourite work of art/entertainment is the film Saving Private Ryan

Saving Private Ryan is a WWII film, in which we follow a group of american soldiers that are going to bring a young soldier back home to his family, beacuse he has lost his three brothers in the war. The United States Army Chief of Staff promised his mother to try and bring her last son home. He made this promise beacuse the mother received all the news of the death of her three sons on the very same day. But the young soldier (Private Ryan) is behind enemy lines and they do not know if he is alive or dead. The United States Chief of Staff decided to send out eight men to bring Private Ryan back home. The soldiers were questioning the order and all the odds against them, why, should eight people risk their lives to bring one person home?

This film was awarded five Oscars. The director is Steven Spielberg and he received one of the awards.

I remember from the first time I saw it that it was a very good film. It is really well made. It made me think how hard it was for the soldier in the war and what they actually went through. I think the film has a very good and interesting story line, not just about the war but also about the bonds between the soldiers and how close friends they became even though they were in a war zone. The film made me hope I will never have to go to war, and it made me realize how painful it must have been for the soldiers and the families back home, when they do not know if their son or husband is going to survive. It is all a bit scary.

I think the film is good because I like action and war films. I prefer war film based on a real war , beacuse it feels like it is based on a true story.

I do not feel that I have burned out on it and I do not think that I will either, but I can not watch the film over and over again. If I see it now and then I think I will always like the film.

Prison Break

One of my favourite TV series is Prison Break. It is a series you have been able to watch on Swedish television every Monday at 10 pm. But now it is on a break. It will start again the 15th October and it will be the third season. The main actors are Wentworth Miller, Dominic Purcell, Peter Stormare, Marshall Allman, Robin Tunney, Sarah Wayne Callies, Amaury Nolasco and Robert Knepper.

The plot in season one is that Lincoln Burrows (Dominic Pursell) has been found guilty of murdering the vice president´s brother and is sentenced to death. Now he is in the Fox Rivers prison. But he is innocent and his brother Micheal Scofield (Wentworth Miller) realizes how close to execution Lincoln is. So Micheal decides to rob a bank and ends up in the same prison as Lincoln to help him to escape, because Micheal knows that Lincoln is an innocent prisonor.

In season two Michael and Lincoln have succeded in escaping from the prison with some other friends they have met in jail. They are hunted by the FBI across the country, and every days they are on the news. But at the same time as they are in flight, Michael wants to prove that Lincoln is innocent. And in season three we will find out if Michael can prove that Lincoln is innocent.

At the beginning of season one I did not know what Prison Break was about. I startid to watch it when they already had shown a few episodes. It was my friends who told me I should watch it because it was so good. Now when I have watched it I am really happy they told me because it was so good. Now when I have watched it I am really happy they told me because it is really good and now I do not miss one episode.

Prison Break is really tough to watch because it consists of so many episodes. But it never feels boring to watching it because there is so much action in every episode.
I have watched every section of Prison Break, I feel close to all characters, so if one of them would die, I would feel, but it would affect me just for the moment.

Monday, November 19, 2007

A book that is supposed to prevent things from happening again

I am going to write about a book that has had a great influence on me. The title of the book; Leila a Bosnian girl. It is about a girl who lived in Bosnian during the war, 1992-1995. The book is a story from real life, a novel and an autobiography. It is a story about Leila and her life during the war and after the war. The book is written by Alexandra Cavelius, based on interview she did with Leila.

In the book you get to follow Leila and her struggle and the effort she makes to survive. She is captured by the Serbian army and is put in a concentration camp when she is only 16 years old. She is alone in a camp full of sick and miserable people who are tortured and beaten to death. The nightmare does not end there.

Leila is a beautiful girl and the beautiful girls are sold to brothels. In the brothel she is forced to do things women are forced to do in brothels, disgusting things in a degrading way. In the beginning Leila has hopes of meeting her family again, to see her mother and brother and the rest of her family, but she has nor idea what the future holds. From there on the book gets even better; Leila is moved from brothel to brothel, from one disgusting soldier to another. Now she is beyond hope of meeting her family again, and she is just about to give up when she finds herself all alone a few years later in a dark forest without a clue of where she is and just a stranger’s face in front of her. Leila is not sure what this man’s intentions are and she is expecting the worst t happen.

This book had a great impact on me because when you read it you can really imagine everything that Leila is going through. Before I read the book, I did not know what horrible things people went trough and the ways people were tortured and killed, especially women.

It is a sad, sad story, a touching story and you can not really understand the point of it until you read the book yourself. The book changed me in a way. It made me respect people more, and respect my cultured and the country that I am from, and it made me feel proud. Is made me realize what my family and friends really mean to me and ho blessed I am to have them. It made me think about other people who are unfortunate, and those people who do not have a home to come back to after a hard day. Where will they go, when the world does not treat them right? Even worse what would a happy home be without having anyone to share it with? There is no greater feeling than the love of family and friends.

Most of us do not know how to appreciate the things we have, like family and friends, a house, a car, a TV, food and, most important, our freedom. Our freedom is one thing that no one can take from us. Leila had it all, a house, a TV, a family and friends, still someone decided to take that away that we need the most_; freedom. Leila’s free will was taken away from her, the possibility of making her own decisions about her future. This is just one of many proofs of how unfair life can be, and how stupid people can act. One of many proof of how people do not think about how their actions can affect other peoples lives. People are still in denial of what happened during the war, a book like this can open people’s eyes. A book like this can make people understand how one man can end so many lives and change so many others. The memories of the war are still there and some memories can not fade away, even if you try your hardest to make them disappear. Some things are just meant to be remembered for ever, so they do not recur again.

What would you do if you wake up one morning and find your life upside down and suddenly you have to realize that everything you lived for is gone and the only thing running trough your head is the thought of survival?

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Personal essay

Music! What does it mean to me? There are many different answers to that question. First of all I think music is a treatment against depression and a way to express my feelings. Music is always available. Everyone has a MP3 player or a cell phone with music. Personally I would not make it without music. When I am depressed I love to listen music that is depressing. It may sound wierd but actually it is really nice and makes me feel better. It feels like the music is sympathizing with me and my feelings and it is a great relief to have. Music is not a living thing but it feels like it sometimes. It is always there to comfort me.

Music is not only good in those situations. The point is that music is always a good for me, no matter how I feel at the moment.

I listen to all kinds of music but mostly Melodic Death Metal and other kinds of Metal. I do not know why I like that kind of music the most. Maybe because it feels like true feelings and power at the same time. It is hard for me to explain.

What would we humans do without music? We have had music at all times. I think it is amazing how music has evolved in our time. Earlier there was no technology at all, but today we have all kinds of instruments and technology to develop all kinds of music.

I have only been to three concerts in my life, but all of these were absolutely amazing. The first concert was in Malmö about a year ago. Five different bands were playing but to be honest I was only there to watch In Flames. Unfortunately they played quite late but it was worth while waiting. They outplayed the other four bands. I visited my second concert in Lund, also an In Flames concert. I loved it. It was the best thing I had done in my life so far. I just love the feeling, standing and screaming to the music. It was a great success! My third one was in Copenhagen, where Linkin Park was playing. I thought In Flames were good but they were nothing compared to Linkin Park. This was something special to me, watching the band I have loved since I was ten years old. It did not feel like reality. People may think wierd things about me and my taste of music but I really love music and it is a very important thing to me. I would like to learn playing an instrument but I do not know. I think I am doing a great job just listening to all the music that I listen to.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

The story that touched my heart

I am going to write about something that really has inspired me and I think it has helped me change my way of thinking.It is a book I read about two years ago. It is called "Koltrastslätten".The title of the book in original, is the name of a province in former Yugoslavia called Kosovo.The story takes place during the short but horrible war in Kosovo 1998-1999. It is about a man's struggle for surviving a year in a country that is laid waste by ethnic cleansing and all the crimes that come with it. This young man is called Goshy, and he was 15 years old when his father was massacred along with all the other men that lived in his village. This was done by the Serbs that had lived in the village along with the Albanian people in peace and harmony for a long time. Thanks to a miracle,Goshy and his brother Mithat, manage to survive and escape the massacre, but his mother and two sisters, and the love of his life, Rebeka, are taken away by the Serbs but nobody knows where to.Goshy decides that he is going to find them no matter what it takes.He thinks that his brother Mithat is going to help him, but he has other plans.Mithat wants to join the Kosovo Liberation army (KLA) and help his people in need.Mithat tries to convince Goshy that it is the right thing to do, but Goshy thinks that KLA is as bad as the Serbian army.Mithat leaves, and Goshy continues his search for his mother,sisters and Rebeka.But it is not that easy to find them , because Goshy has to avoid beeing seen by the Serbian army, so he spends almost two days in the woods without any food or water. One day he falls asleep leaning on a tree. Then the Serbian army gets closer and finds him. They capture him and bring him to a brothel. After two days Goshy manages to escape as a result of an invasion made by KLA, now he is back in the woods and he has no food, the ethnic cleansing is still going on , and he does not even know if his family is alive or dead.In the end he finds a refugee camp , where his mother and his two sisters are. But he cannot find Rebeka, only her mother and sisters. Later he finds out that Rebeka was captured by the Serbian army and had been brought to a brothel. After she was released she comitted suicide.


This book is one of the best books I have ever read. The main reason is because it explains what happened in the modern Europe, and I don't think that many people know that. This story is not a true story, it has been glued together by many stories told by the Albanian refugees right after the war when being interviewed by the author of the book, Torben Poulsen. This book has touched my heart in a way that i did not think was possible. I have read it three times. It really made me think how lucky I am living in Sweden, and I thank my parents for the decision to move away from Kosovo. I feel a lot of pain for my people that went through all this, but at the same time I am really glad that I was not there. When I first read the book I just could not stop thinking about it. It just had a huge impact on me . In a way it is very hard to read because the only thing you want to do is cry when you read it. It breaks your heart to know that these things have really happened to people. But that is actually one of the main reasons why I love it. The author has not romantisised what really happened during those years the war was going on. He tells stories about peoples struggle through the character Goshy, and he tells them straight out, without making anything look better than it really was. When you read the book, you notice that Torben Poulsen does not only write about what the Serbs did, he is concerned with what the Albanians did to the Serbs that lived in Kosovo. And it is true, because KLA and the Serbian army were in alot of battles. But they were not face to face with eachother. They attacked the innocent people, like Goshy and his family, the civilians.

This book is very hard to find. You cannot find it in many libraries. Maybe because it has not the most popular topic and because of that it has not become a bestseller. That is a pity, because sometimes I want to read it again. I do not think people are interested reading about something they know nothing about and I do not think that many people know alot about the wars in former Yugoslavia. But it doesn't matter, the wars are over now,but still books about the war in former Yugoslavia can be very interesting to read, and this one is. Torben Poulsen is a very talented writer and has written other very inspiring books about things in daily life around the world. When he writes about something, he engages himself. That is very noticeable in this book. When he talks about the ordinary day for Goshy in his village, you can tell that Torben knows alot about the traditions and the way people lives their life in Kosovo. It is very admiring that an Danish author is so interested in a culture that is different from his own. Because with out the author this incredible story about Goshy would not excist and no one would tell the world these things that happened during the war in Kosovo.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Music!

A band that has affected me and influenced me in a small way is a Swedish rock band named kent. I think it is mainly because I like Jocke Berg, the singer and songwriter. He is really good at what he does, and he can express so many feelings in a tune, which makes you able to interpret it as you like.

There are a lot of people who are judgemental against the band. Many people just assume that just because the lyrics are rather sad and kind of depressing sometimes, the ones who listen to it suffer from a depression and wear black all the time. I think that just because you listen to a certain music style you do not have to take on the whole lifestyle that comes with it. The first time I experienced kent I was about 13 years old. My brother and my mother are also very fond of kent so the first time I heard them I was at home. At first, I thought the lyrics were strange. Since I was just 13 years old I did not understand much, but it grew on me and I came to like it.

After a while I stopped listening to it and it was not until I was about 15 years old that I picked up an old CD laying around and put it in the CD player. I started listening to it again. It was then I really got into kent and because I was older, I came to understand all the things I was not able to understand the last time I heard it. Maybe I got a little bit wiser by listening to kent, but I tend to never let anything affect me a lot and especially not music. The lyrics are melancholy and reflective and often rather strange. As I said before, you can interpret them as you like. Some songs are cheery and happy and some are very “please come and kill me now”. Sometimes I get really bored with it because I feel that it is all about suffering and self-pity. The band itself is not the most modest band in the world if you put it like that. I have periods of liking for kent. Sometimes I listen to it intensely and sometimes I do not listen to it at all. I had a very intense period when I was about 15 years old and at that time I listened to the CD’s “Hagnesta Hill” and “Isola”. If I listen to them today I feel all the things I felt back then, I feel really nostalgic about it. Some of the songs will always be very special for me.

I have never been much of an artist. I am really bad at singing and painting and things like that, and I do not think that kent has influenced me i my non-artistic ways.